I had the sudden urge to clean out my drawer in my desk tonight. I opened the drawer, and started to clean out and sort the objects in the drawer. I picked up one object at a time, and created three piles on my desk: a pile for trash, a pile for things that did not belong in the drawer and a pile for the items that I wanted to put back in the drawer.As I was creating these piles I noticed that even though this was a simple task of cleaning and disposing of clutter, it represented a lot more when applied to my life.
As I kept cleaning I realized that the simple act of me cleaning out my drawer, represented the spark of motivation, that is usually lacking in my daily life. Though I would prefer not to call myself "lazy", I seem to be constantly searching for the "inner spark" when doing daily things, and I find myself to be very unmotivated about certain things in my life, like exercise. Th idea of going to the gym everyday just sounds unappealing and I am trying to find ways to get more activity in my day in a environment that I will enjoy. I discovered that this first step of emptying my drawers and organizing things, is actually a metaphor for me to accept the fact that I may not be as motivated as I would like, and I have to take steps to change my attitude to become more motivated.
As if fate was reading my mind, I was almost done placing the objects back into the drawers when the whole drawer slid out of the drawer slot, and went crashing to the floor. This action reminded me that even though I may set goals, and try to work to achieve them, I may have some setbacks, that may try to slow me down, or try to stop me, or even set me back to square one.
I could have left the drawer and its contents on the floor, and said "this is too hard!" and walked away. Sure I was angry, all of this hard work all to do it again!! But I looked at the sad state of this mess, and I decided to pick up the drawer and put in back in the slot, and pick up all of the pieces, and put them back in the drawer where they belong. After completing this task. I looked at my nice, clean, organized drawer, and I realized that even when life turns everything upside down, if you do not move on and towards your goals, you may end up in a worse place than you started in.
